This woman

This woman came in

She was black

I noticed right away

And I huffed

Quietly 

What a waste of time

I knew what she was going to say

Some garbage probably 

about wanting help buying a house

Ha

No way

I pulled the buttons on the front of my shirt

I looked down 

Then I looked away 

Back to her

Shucks I said

I’m gonna have to crunch some numbers

Maybe then you can see it my way

And she looked so forlorn 

Oh well

“Oh well too bad”

But I said that part in my head

You see 

I couldn’t give less of a fuck about the struggle of this woman

Life is hard

Keep it that way

Why should I give her the power to

Own something?

Might take my power away

You see

Her struggle is my gain

And I’ll 

Close my eyes

And sleep at night 

And never think about how I cause pain

I’ve got my money

I like my job 

I go to church

I love my God

And I’ve realized I deserve more than her

Because I’ve always had better

It should stay that way

So then she left 

Upset as she was

And I thought very little of her

Til she called back

That stupid woman

Who does she think she is

She was saying

Saying something foolish about checking her numbers again

I’m so good at my job 

I’m a fucking genius 

I found some unpaid electric bill somewhere she never paid

A wrench in her plans

Ha ha!

Foiled again

But she keeps calling

Calling me back

Over and over again

I’m tired

I have a job to do

She should have realized by now she’s got 

No money coming her way

So I stopped answering her calls

I’m running out of reasons to say no

She’s fine but 

Lending money to a black woman 

Just

Isn’t the way to go