“This is it, real life is starting”, I thought to myself as I was on my way home from college graduation. College almost felt like a bubble, you have a routine and the challenges consisted of familiar things like homework, finding the motivation to go outside, and hanging around with friends. Though I felt as if my education prepared me for what would hopefully be a career in graphic design, I was anxious about moving on and settling into real adult society. I want a wife, house, car, kids, stable job, all of the basic things that one would assume brings fulfillment and happiness. Now it is time to actively work towards that, but I’m lost. I’m not sure where to begin with any of that. The first step is getting a job obviously, but what does that entail? Working for someone else for 30 years just to possibly make six figures? To me that sounds mentally exhausting, and tedious. As a kid I always imagined that I’d work for myself somehow, and I’ve always had my own hustles going whether it was freelancing or other random things like reselling clothes. Every job I’ve ever had felt almost like torture, and I don’t want that feeling for my entire life. I struggle with structure though, and I’m somewhat impulsive and unorganized, so maybe a job with a boss and set routine would be best for me, even if it’s at the expense of my general happiness. 

Oh, and I guess now I gotta start my paying student loans back, and I only have 10 years to do it. So far I’m not super optimistic about the “real world” but I’m sure I’ll make it work, I always seem to adjust quickly to new situations. For now I should just be happy that I graduated, and get a part time job while I search for a career. I wouldn’t say I’m optimistic but I’m not a quitter either.