On the day I left for college, my mom kissed me on my forehead and whispered lovingly in my ear, “go into pharmaceuticals”, I didn’t have the heart to tell her that her daughter is a dumbass. when someone asks me about my future, all I can think about is the immediate future, my next four years. I think college might be some of the hardest years of my life. I decided to major in biology, something I have been passionate about ever since the sixth grade, but I feel like I’m very different from the average biology student, because I’ve never had to actually try in school. Ever since middle school, I have been perfectly fine being the average to below average student, I would study for tests the night before, even complete projects the day of, but I never put any real effort into my education. Even during my AP bio class I only really started studying for the test two days before, and was content with the extremely average 3 I received for my minimal effort. 

But now I’m in college, and I am forced, for the first time in my life to push myself past limits I didn’t even know existed. I’ve been having a really tough time, I’m used to spending 6 hours watching TV and one hour of studying, not the other way around. But what stresses me out even more then my upcoming Midterms in Bio and Chem is my future. Thinking about taking Organic chemistry makes my brain hurt, but I’m too stubborn to quit, so in my future I see a lot of stress and anxiety and an overwhelming amount of work. From my perspective, I cant even think about getting a job or family and friends in the future when that is all resting upon whether or not I get a GPA thats higher then a 3.5.